Antidepressants have been helping me.
I see my doctor this week for my first prescription.
Gonna get something for my low testosterone, too. I hear T is for more than just sex. (energy, in general) I am going to turn 60 this summer.
Monday is my 2nd psych therapy session.
I had tried antidepressants and therapy about 15 years ago, but it didn't really seem to help. Possibly due to my self-medicating with cannabis. A year ago I quit smoking for a month, but it didn't take.
The trauma of losing my job this year (laid off) pretty much sealed the deal on that, this time. I don't expect to fall off the wagon, this time. And it is much more than just being able to pee clean. It is a VERY large money pit, not to mention the clandestine meetings. Not really good for the soul.
Except for living homeless, I think I have finally hit my personal "best" rock bottom, which is usually a good thing, for the future.
I am lucky that this particular substance was such an easy one to quit cold. I'm not sure I can say the same thing about my issues with spending money. If I get this job, I will have to face that monster, again. I just need to keep up with the therapy. I have always done well when I have a professional to talk with. But doing so is a very recent development in my life.
Otherwise, I have been lucky. No tobacco, no alcohol and no gambling.